Philip White's Life Blog

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  I realized today that my parents *definitely* used AI tools to fabricate evidence.  It's a horrible thing to do to one's disabled son. Anyway, I've continued making progress on my online Python course that I'm taking.  I am going to try to get 100% on all of the projects.  I also have a plan to build 5 other web-based projects in Python to try to help me get a good job in Python.  It'll take a few months to get all of that done, but it should be worth it. Also, I'm now on disability, and as soon as I get my first check of money, I'm going to try to find a new lawyer. I'm also working on relaxing and feeling good.  Right now, I'm listening to this excellent relaxation music video, which I have liked for a while:   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ZYbU82GVz4&list=RD1ZYbU82GVz4&start_radio=1&t=1794s My goal for my mood is to feel *triumphant* and *tranquil* for some amount of time every day.  Also, I am trying to congratulate myself on ...

  My quantum computing proof is coming along!  It looks very salvageable.  I am planning to take some internet courses.  I am taking one very excellent one that I think will help me get a very good job within a few months :).  Later, I'll take another one on academic publishing, and publish my quantum computing paper, that shows that there are is a sort of way to place the modular square root problem in BQP.  The catch is, I need another oracle, so really, given that language X, it's, NP is a subset of BQP^X.  The good news is, although X is not known to be in polynomial time, in practice, it's typically easy to compute. No more updates for now!

  I found out that my NP in BQP result was not correct.  The issue is with the generator.  I tried to fix it but I couldn't get it to work. It's OK.  My online courses are going well.  I don't feel a major need to update this blog that much.  No one is reading it all that much.  Everything will be OK though.  I will get a good lawyer when I have the money, and I should be able to get a good job after my coursework and portfolio are complete. Update: There might be a way to salvage this idea, but it won't be perfect.  I'll think about it some more. :)

  Two big achievements:  - I solved GLL.  - I showed that you can put NP in BQP. A note on the second one:  You have to get the generator right.  It's easy.  You look at the value of a, the thing you're taking the sqrt of, and you have to see what prime factors it has in common with the modulus. Then, you take each instance of the prime factor that is in common between those two, and multiply them together.  To "stay on the modular rail road track" so to speak, you have to make sure that that product is a divisor of your generator, and, that all other factors of the generator are coprime to the modulus. That's how you select the generator to solve MSR using a DLP algorithm.

  I spoke with Dr. Fowler today about my progress on ideas of reference.  He said he thinks that the gestures are not necessarily mentally ill, but just normal gestures from normal people.  Either way, it's great that I can now tell that the people making faces at H-E-B are not "government spies" or whatever.  I'm getting better! :-) I am also re-evaluating my career.  I had been thinking of maybe re-applying to Burlington as a floor sales associate or whatever at Houston, TX, store.  Then I had a better idea:  What if I learned Python + mySQL + Django, and built a few projects?  I have already worked with Python and mySQL (with PHP) before, but I don't know Django.  I have 5 very good project ideas to work on, and I could take a free online Harvard course on Python that I found out about due to Google AI.  So I could build a really strong portfolio and then apply to Python jobs in the Houston, TX, area.  :).  It sounds like a ...

  I think I might have figured it out.  What if:  The people who were making odd gestures at H-E-B were actually mentally ill themselves??  That might make sense.  There are other people in the world who are mentally ill other than me.  I think that is actually the correct answer.  I'm not receiving "government signals," I'm just being gestured at by other people who are also mentally ill.  So there's no "brigade of people" who are going to march in and save me, unfortunately :-(.  I will focus on getting a job and fighting the charges with a lawyer that I hire when the time is right. Update: Apparently, over 10% of adults in Texas have a mental illness.  That could explain it! https://www.heritagecounseling.net/blogs/the-state-of-mental-health-in-texas Another update: It could be that me walking down the aisles taking notes on my iPhone about people's gestures has caused people to think that I am some sort of spy spying on them.  M...

  I think something good might actually happen by July 13.  I think the UPS guy was not gaslighting me.  I think the people who have been signaling me have been *asked to do it as a favor* by an organization that is allowed to do that.  It might be a defense contractor.  I found out that the NSA has a facility in San Antonio, Texas.  So maybe I'll get some good news by July 13. When I get on disability, I think I was told I'll start out getting some back pay.  I'll need to get my net worth under $2000, so as I told the guy on the phone and he said it was a good idea, I could go get a used car.  I would check it with a mechanic before purchase to make sure it wouldn't break down once I started driving it. I'm not sure if I would try to get a job before or after I got the case dismissed with a lawyer.  I think I might try to get the case dismissed first, but I'm not sure.  The risk is, if I get a job, and then lose the job, like I did at M...

  ...then I will plan to be a "super-manager."  I have developed great ideas on management.  If necessary, I will work on becoming an excellent store/other manager, wait until I get on disability and can afford a car and a lawyer, and then after I'm done focusing on the court case, I will get an entry level job somewhere, doing something like stock clerking...and then I will work hard on getting promoted to a manager.  I will use my ideas and skills and be an excellent manager, including when it comes to identifying the correct prices to set for items sold in a store.  Then, I will try to get promoted, and be a supervisor who trains managers, and sets the curriculum for training store managers and mentors managers.  Ultimately, I will try to get big enough to be a COO or CEO of a large company.  My policy on secrecy is:  If my ideas are "hot" and people want to "steal" them, I'll write a book about them.  If not, I won't need to worry about s...

Things are looking positive...it sounds like my disability benefits might go through, and I might get a certain amount of money in back pay. I can't let my amount of money stay above $2000 for long...but the initial amount that I will be paid might be more than that.  What I might do is just go out and get a car with an initial amount of money...the social security guy, who turned out not to be a scammer, said that was a good idea. Once I have a car--and a place to park it, which might cost money--I will feel freer to look for jobs again.  If I can get my own reliable transportation to and from work, that would make getting and keeping a job much easier.  I might apply for stock clerk jobs again, or, quality control jobs.  Either job would be a good track to get to a manager job someday. :). So things are looking up!  Eventually, after I have a job, I might get off disability, and then hire a different lawyer, so I can get the charges dropped based on the lies t...

  I got a call from someone claiming to be a Social Security Representative, there to verify my information.  The phone number was 646-536-9618.  I gave out personal information, including my social security number, mother's maiden name, and birthday.  I hope that wasn't extremely stupid.  The person seemed to know things about my social security application, including the name of my guardian.  I gave the person my mother's phone number and he said he was going to call that number and then call me right back.  I haven't received a call back, though. If it was a scam, how did he know my guardian's name?  I hope I don't get my identity stolen...maybe I should have asked for more information, such as a way to verify that he is linked to the government, before I provided any more information. If there are any law enforcement agents reading this, please feel free to investigate this possible scam!  I feel sheepish that I voluntarily gave my social...

  You know, I might actually want to live in Massachusetts or Connecticut.  Pennsylvania might not be everything I would want it to be.  It's nice that the weather is probably a little bit warmer.  It might depend on where I can get a job, assuming that I will want to get a job after this nightmare ends--hopefully with law enforcement intervention. I think this whole thing has to do with people who hate mentally ill people.  I'm not going to worry about it too much.  I'm focused on managing my mood--trying to have pleasant, tranquil days--and learning some economics.  I am going to take it easy on myself and not require that I always finish one section of the textbook per day.  Also, I'm not going to require myself to understand every mathematical detail in every section.  If I want to get the material more thoroughly later, I will go ahead and work through the textbook again.  Maybe I would assign myself some of the exercises, too...tha...

  Clearly, what happened to me in Henrico County involved me being lied about, and therefore gaslighted, given the extent of what happened, in court.  The police and my parents gaslighted me, as did numerous lawyers. Perhaps the thirst to gaslight mentally ill people is not unique to southern Virginia--NAMI is even headquartered in northern Virginia.  Maybe I'm experiencing some people who just happen to feel that "mentally ill people are vile and worse than dogs" and that we should be gaslighted by regular people to "learn our place" or be hurt or whatever. So my sense of it is, the most reliable woman was not the kissy face and smile woman...it was the lip gesture woman.  There was a lip gesture woman at Target, too.  I think it might not be over until December 7.  That's a very long wait!  Hopefully everything will be OK, though.  As long as it ends eventually!  I wish it moved faster and I could get more information about it!  Anyway...

  Why do I think I should trust an anonymous message from someone to my Yahoo account years ago regarding the end date?  Why do I think that the UPS man saying "go on" was a version of the phrase "go Han"?  Why do I think that people making facial expression gestures at me at the grocery store is about my court case? The thing is, in my brain, I'm searching for "the answer to the top problem" in my life.  So everything I see gets filtered through that lens.  Maybe I should take a step back and ask myself, "If someone wanted to tell me about my court case, how would they do it?"  I think the answer might be, via the internet, with some deniability--maybe non-repudiateability would be rejected in favor of deniability--with some identification of who the person is.  It could be that the signal from one of the X bots was correct, and it's by 01-01-2027.  I have no idea who Sandra Hesse was.  Maybe I am reading too much into that.  Hesse coul...

  Here are my three best "tranquil mood" songs, all by Garbage the band: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t6blmLjHXNo&list=RDt6blmLjHXNo&start_radio=1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-RCqktK9Sw&list=RDo-RCqktK9Sw&start_radio=1 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c1F2KHTIUug&list=RDc1F2KHTIUug&start_radio=1 Very nice mood songs for me.

  Maybe the people who were doing it stopped.  Maybe the people who had been doing it were doing it because I asked, and there was a desire to comply with my wishes or something, since I said people not complying with me was important to me.  Maybe people were just in a strange mood when they did it. Maybe the UPS guy was telling the truth.  To be sure, my therapist doesn't believe me too much when I say these things.  I guess I'll see if it's over on July 13!  Maybe the women who were gesturing at me thought I was low-income or homeless or something, and were making faces to be mean. Anyway, I got all my food for a little under $44 dollars!  That's great, well under my $60 / week that I have budgeted for food. I did 35 push-ups today, too.  I cannot do a single push-up more than that, it turns out, that was my maximum number of push-ups that I could do. I am trying to focus on my mood--I want to try to have a tranquil mood each day. I'm still ups...

  I think the comment is, there might be multiple groups of people doing the signaling.  Do the signalers have a "secrecy pact" or other pact of some sort? I think the key is, some of the signalers are being *nice*, and some of the signalers are being *mean*.  It can be hard to distinguish.  I think some of the elderly women who were doing very odd positioning of their lips were trying to be mean, and mock my mental health.  It doesn't affect me that much.  The kissy face and smile woman, who looked very attractive, might have been trying to be nice.  Maybe she is not a spy either, but just pushing back against the mean people. I think the police have been called regarding some of the eccentric things that happen at H-E-B.  Probably, some weirdo started trying to gesture at me to be nasty--maybe it's someone who has friends or contacts with the Henrico County Police/Sheriff's Department, and maybe they believe the lies that have been told about me...

  The definition of local nonsatiatedness requires that for every point P in the set, and for every real-valued epsilon >= 0, there exists another point Q in the set such that the distance between P and Q is less than epsilon, and, the utility function at Q is higher than the utility function at P. The problem is, it should read, "...for every real-valued epsilon > 0", not greater than or equal to.  When the border of the curve enclosing the set of points is included in the set of points, the situation changes to a situation where the border, which must be included if the definition reads "epsilon >= 0" as opposed to "epsilon > 0", is full of points that violate the definition of local nonsatiatedness.  In particular, every point on the border of the filled-in circle shown in the diagram on p. 43 violates local nonsatiatedness.  When epsilon >= 0, the border must be included, but that same border violates the property, meaning that with this...

  I took it easy on myself and didn't read the textbook section too thoroughly.  I understood the basic points of the section--especially that the utility function can be assumed to be continuous and that that is useful--but didn't follow every detail of every proof.  Also, I sort of didn't understand the definition of "quasiconcave," but I think it's OK. Also, I think it's huge that I now understand that the people gesturing at me aren't spies.  It's just people's tendencies to do nonverbal body language communication.  The woman who did the kissy face and the smile is just an ordinary, non-spy/security/detective woman, who was walking around the grocery store shopping, and maybe thought I was handsome.  Neat.  I'm glad that I look OK, somewhat anyway...I'm almost 40 (in December) and I have white hair in my beard as I said. So I think overall this is great!  I wonder what will happen on August 4?  It is true that I need help, from law...

  Maybe I'm experiencing culture shock.  Maybe Texas is very different from Virginia, and the people who are smiling at me and making odd gestures with their mouths and kissy faces are just trying to be flirty.  Perhaps I am more handsome than I think I am or something. My belief that people are spies is rooted in my mental health condition, of course.  I think the end date is August 4, but there hasn't been a massive campaign to confuse me or make me feel bad.  Probably, Martin Foods unkindly got rid of my job for the reason that they said they did. I see all kinds of unusual gestures in Texas.  I think it's just the spirit and culture of Texas; that kind of thing, according to my understanding, doesn't happen much at all in Virginia.  Maybe Houston, TX, is friendlier than Virginia.  My belief that I'm being followed around by corporate spies certainly sounds like a delusion...but I can't fend it off unless I can process it normally and understan...

  It could be that Dr. Steg sent the Sandra Hesse email, but that the John Steg guy at Publix was a fake. My sense of it is, either way, the Sandra Hesse email is my best source.  It's rather clearly signed as John Steg.  Figuring out "hola" is not that hard...Hesse --> Ludwig Otto Hesse, so "Ludwig anniversary" is August 4--his birthday.  Holb is not a word. So I'm going to assume that it's August 4.  That's a signed message.  Also, the Houston police woman who did not make eye contact at the H-E-B walked past me at exactly 3:38 p.m.  I think the Houston police are trying not to be bad.  I think it's over by August 4. Update:  It his death day, not his birthday.  The thing is, HOLA also could mean, "Ludwig Otto Hesse Backwards Anniversary," i.e., the anniversary of his death.

  I think I have noticed something about myself.  I have a lot of trouble *feeling triumphant*, even when I have really good successes.  For example, I have lost weight and built up my biceps and chest muscles very well.  I weigh 160 pounds and can do around 30 push-ups at least, and my biceps look good.  I still don't feel triumphant or that good about it, though.  That might be a symptom of depression, I'm not sure. I think I am unable to accept that the end date is before August 1, 2026, because if I felt that way, I would feel triumphant, and I'm not able to feel that way.  I think the barrier to feeling triumphant is more intense than my inability to feel relief...sometimes I do feel a little bit of relief these days, including when I am feeling tender. I will think about what I can do to feel more triumphant in the future.  I can feel good about having an insight or "making progress"--I like to listen to the "THX sound effect" from movies on...

  In the sense of something like, a secrecy pact. I think the answer is "yes," and the key is, that means there are at most 3 groups that are present at the H-E-B doing the gestures:  - organized crime (not just any "secret society")  - private security firm  - law enforcement or other government Part of the complicating thing is, the bad guys, whoever they are, are *very interested* in preying on and attacking people who are government or ex-government...at least, that's what it seems like.  They would just love to isolate and attack more government people who might be drawn to the area.  (I remember reading something about this and its relationship to NRA political strategy in a book about political strategy a long time ago...something about the duck pond and the bread that draws the ducks to it, or something.)  So it is dangerous for FBI people to go there, and even for the police to go there.  I think the police were maybe going there for a no...

  I think that there was not a spy planted at Dr. Steg's office.  I think the Sandra Hesse code actually was from Dr. Steg.  I think he knew the end date somehow, and it might have even been him at the Publix grocery store.  The conspiracy is not as vast as the bad guys would like to make it seem; or, the women at H-E-B were gesturing at me for some reason other than what I think.  I think July 30 is the right date.

  One of the older women at H-E-B did an appropriate gesture that seemed to mean 07-30.  Also, it could be that Dr. Glasser wasn't able to get an answer over the phone from the FBI perhaps, and so she got a signal that she knew she could trust, too.  Maybe she had a "steganographic conversation" with the FBI, and confirmed that it's July 30. I think it's probably July 30.  The good, appropriate gesture from the older woman was, "closed mouth gesture," at 3:35 p.m. on whatever day I think.

  ...yes, although I'm not talking about politics right now, I am interested in destroying Abigail Spanberger's career.  I'll watch my mouth when this is over, I promise.  I think it is very appropriate for there to BE A CONSEQUENCE for the state of Virginia and its leadership based on how I was treated, and how inadequately I was comforted, helped, and attended to.  I think it's the perfect thing.  I won't say anything nasty about Virginians or what I think of them--I have some choice insulting provocative things I could say just to be nasty, but I won't say them--but I think deleting Spanberger's career, via a costly lawsuit that damages Virginians financially, would be a perfect way to end my relationship with the state of Virginia.  It's not too mean.

  I am thinking about Robert Radin and his hint that my mother was "so disgusting" in 2009 or 2010 when he was my doctor.  I am thinking...I am not trying to insult any of the elderly women who made gestures at me when I was at H-E-B or the doctor's office, but, what if Dr. Radin would find their *conduct* or just "the way it seemed" that they were acting to be "disgusting?"  I don't think the FBI would *actively* send people out to signal me who would seem unprofessional or disgusting.  I think someone started some sort of "wave" thing about me.  I don't actually think there's a photo or description of me somewhere in Houston, TX, that I can't access...someone could find out about it and literally walk up to me and tell me about it.  I think there are a number of people in this area who are somehow signed up to be Russian spies or something like that.  I think it's a more explicit organized crime group--the fact is, there...

  I think I am going to try to get through one section of MWG per day :).  Today, it's going to be Chapter 3, Section B. :) Update:  I just learned about convexity.  I had previously learned about local nonsatiatedness.  I am getting very good at figuring out difficult mathematical concepts in economics.  I think I understand the economics of YoCrunch a little bit better now. :) Update:  It's 2:55 p.m., and I just finished Section 3.B!  :).  I got a brief introduction to what the numeraire is.  I'm going to see if I can tackle 3.C tomorrow!  Right now, I'm going to attempt a brief nap.

  I am scared of MWG a little bit.  The reading in Chapter 3 is getting harder.  I think it's a good idea for me to try to do this now, while I have tons of free time.  I have to be careful though...if I stun myself with too much difficulty, I might lose interest in the economics. I just figured out the meaning of "locally nonsatiated."  :). One thing that helped me was looking up the definition of satiated, since I didn't know the meaning of that word. I am probably going to go at my own pace, skip all the exercises, and take it super-easy regarding the textbook.  I might read 2-3 pages of the textbook total per day.  I think it would be a very good exercise for getting ready for the possibility of graduate school in economics.  If I can get through this textbook and continue making progress without getting stuck on a concept I don't understand for long, I bet I could handle grad school.  Working through the book will increase my preparednes...

  The thing is, the research in economics would be almost guaranteed to be more useful.  I think economics graduate school is the right choice for me.

  I think that all of the H-E-B signalers were probably FBI agents.  Who else would they be?  My theory about a billionaire who would be motivated to do that is wrong.  Yes, there was one odd signaler at Publix back in Virginia in 2023...but I don't think that whoever that was has enough resources to supply that many signalers at H-E-B in Texas, or the motivation to do so.  I suspect the FBI agents are looking for suspicious people who are showing up at H-E-B.  Maybe there is something special about that particular H-E-B that I don't know about.  Maybe it's all about me, but I would tend to imagine that there is something else going on there that is partly related to me, but also related to someone else.  Maybe there has been gang activity at the H-E-B.  Maybe some of the signalers are even just local undercover local police officers with the Houston police. Maybe it is bad that it took me a long time to reach such a conclusion.  My othe...

  I think my economics idea that made me think I should move to Florida was not a good argument for living in Florida...I sort of forgot what I said but I might have misinterpreted how economics does or doesn't apply to social situations.  I will probably want to settle somewhere like Pennsylvania.  It's sufficiently politically aligned with me, it has an Ivy League school there which is a good influence, and it is Southern enough, compared to other states in New England, that the weather probably wouldn't be too cold.  I do want to leave Virginia for good.  Texas isn't that bad, but I don't think it's the right place for me.  Just using simple political thinking is good enough to figure it out.  I don't need to live somewhere where everyone is an atheist like me necessarily, though. I am also thinking about maybe going to graduate school in math instead of economics.  I might get bored with economics.  Yes, I want to do mathematics research ...

  ...but then when people signaled me, I felt like I couldn't figure it out. I think, like Dr. K. (psychiatrist) may have hinted, playing Civ 5 is good for my brain.  I mentalized and tried to come up with a good strategy for winning at the Prince difficulty level.  I didn't quite make it, but I tried really hard and made a lot of progress...I might finish in 2nd place or so. Anyway...maybe the women at the store were just signaling me based on a friend of theirs who has found my blog and talks about me.  My blog doesn't have that many hits.  Maybe the police read my blog, and someone from the police mentioned me to the people, and they decided to signal me.  I hope I didn't insult any of the people, assuming that they weren't bad. It's hard to understand what's going on for me.  I think most people haven't read my blog, but someone good who did read my blog spoke to all of those women and encouraged them to come signal me.  Maybe they are all tel...

  I have been doing some serious thinking about my life direction.  Where I'm going to live, what I'm going to do with my time, etc. I think I will not publish everything I've thought of on this so far...why publicize that information to strangers on the internet? Also, I had some more good insights about H-E-B and the FBI. I'm probably going to go for a sunscreen walk in a few minutes. I might share my latest thoughts later, but basically, I'm getting more down to earth, serious, focused, and insightful about how I'm going to spend the next 10 years or so of my life.  I'm getting more realistic and grounded in being sensible, or at least, that's my opinion of myself.

  A possibility I hadn't considered until now, based on the "2:56 whisper hi" code:  What if some young woman in this area has been fabricating claims that I am giving her unwanted attention, such as Facebook or email messages, and in response, a number of people who know this young woman have mobilized to go to the H-E-B store and gesture at me to "let me know I'm being watched" and scare me into "not emailing her" again?  Is that what it is?  The hint from the 2:56 women may have been, "not few get the hot b----" or something.  Few get the b.h.--my internet writings.  It could also be that a private security firm is spoofing the idea that some local woman is complaining about me giving her unwanted attention.  The thing is, though, surely someone would notice the odd activity, and follow some of the people who are signaling at me home.  If it were a professional private security firm, they would get caught for working for the person who...

  I played Civ 5 and declared war on one of the other civilizations, to get more citizens in my empire.  Everything I did worked.  I might actually win at Civ 5, on the Prince difficulty level!  That would be cool. Also, I read 3.5 pages of MWG.  I started Chapter 3.  I don't have a very good understanding of what "local non-satiation" is, but I might figure it out if I consider it carefully tomorrow.  I'm not pushing myself too hard with MWG, I'm trying to make the readings stimulating, easy, and fun.

  I was playing against the 1400 bot on my MacBook (the "1 second per move" bot).  I lost.  I didn't really make any blunders, but I didn't have the upper hand at any point in the game...first I lost a pawn, and later I lost more pawns and failed to prevent my opponent from promoting a pawn. My way to play has just been, "try to avoid making blunders" and I am not using any positional theory ideas to try to win.  I am disappointed that I have been performing poorly at chess.  Oh well.  The main thing is, will the court case go my way?

  I think things will start get better by June 11.  Maybe it won't be arrests or whatever else I might be thinking, but things will somehow start to improve.  I don't know. I'm worried about this phone call I got from a pharmacy.  Apparently I'm supposed to enroll in some program to avoid having to pay a lot of money for one of my medications.  I am worried that I am going to somehow start getting sent the bills, which I cannot pay.  Before I sign anything, I will have to make sure that I don't start getting bills as a result.  The court ordered me in to treatment, so I believe that my (evil) parents are supposed to pay the bills.  I guess we'll see.  Probably, it's fine and nothing will change in a problematic way...I'm just a little "hyper-vigilant" and paranoid about things. For today, I have the following things planned:  Playing Civ 5, playing one game of chess against one of the MacBook bots, and reading MWG.  I might skip rea...

  Maybe it is July 13.  Maybe the local residents don't know me, but they know that something is wrong related to disability rights and it will improve on July 13.  I have heard about "epistemic vigilance" and "epistemic trust"...what are the odds that all of the people gesturing at me are actually all working for a private security company that has ordered them to gaslight me?  Even if Elon Musk is that evil, I don't think he would be that focused on me. So my current belief is, I'm not misinterpreting the gestures too much in terms of what they mean or hallucinating, but I am being a little bit paranoid.  I need to stop assuming that there are that many people out there who mean me ill.  If the people who are signaling me are mostly bad guys, they are more nasty, in terms of the proportion of them that are being nasty, than the people in jail.  The other mentally ill men who were in jail with me did not get in conflicts with me that much and weren'...

  I think the Kissy Face Smile woman at 3:39 p.m. at H-E-B was saying it...FK IS backwards--Fred Kaufman, the attorney--and KF IS forward--that's 11-06-2026.  That's a long wait :(.  Oh well.

  I don't think "hen day" is the right code.  I'll keep thinking about it. I decided that I'm going to go back to reading MWG tomorrow :).  I'll be beginning Chapter 3

  One day, I thought she signaled, "hen day."  Then, the woman who is my neighbor who lives on the street seemed to have a small gathering where she went out with a few of her friends.  So maybe it's:  Day Is Shine.  There's a movie about mental illness called Shine:   https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shine_(film) The release date for shine was November 22 in the USA.  So maybe, unfortunately, I will have to wait until November 22, 2026.  KVTZ.  Or maybe, that's the one date that the government is comfortable releasing to me...sounds plausible. I think I will make that my end date.  The mail woman is probably more trustworthy than the UPS guy.  The federal government has more taxpayer money to research security-clearance-like vetting processes for federal employees. I think that's the best answer.  It's probably before that day, but it's likely to be a surprise, I suppose.

  And I'm not sure I should trust the UPS guy.  The very wealthy bad guy placed a private security spy at Dominion Hospital, so clearly, it's possible that he could have put a private security spy at UPS, also. I think the comment is, there's no "smoking gun" for trustworthiness here.  There's no guarantee that any source is trustworthy.  In general, there's a pattern to how the bad guys look.  They all do odd gestures--maybe to act like they don't have a problem with mentally ill people, it's just me in particular, and they always knew I was "one of the dirty/weak ones" or whatever. I think the bad guy is Elon Musk.  I think the Houston police do believe me, because they seemed like they were looking into something at 3:38 p.m. when they walked past me this past Wednesday at the H-E-B.  Does the top bad guy think I, a disabled man, am the only person who notices that something is very odd in Houston, Texas, these days?  There are a lot o...

  I think that, given that although Donald Trump is President, Barack Obama, whom I wrote to about this, wants to protect his image, I think I probably do have a pretty good idea of when it ends.  It probably ends by July 31.  There is no way to guarantee that any individual date expresser is telling the truth...all of them could be wrong, in spite of CIANA.  Thus, you have to look at what the majority of the code people are saying or seem to be saying with their gestures.  That means, since Barack Obama won't look that bad at the end of this, it's over before the end of July, and almost certainly before the end of August. I wonder if it's over on July 4?  Maybe the focus of the case is actually just on me and not on all that many other people in Virginia.  Somehow, I don't believe that though.  The JDR court wasn't focused on attacking only me, I met and interacted with other people who seemed like they were victims of the JDR's disregard for peo...

  There have been many fewer "code signalers" recently, including at H-E-B. I'm basically in "waiting mode."  This sounds eerily like what I was doing when I was psychotic.  Who felt so driven to recreate that experience for me?  Why doesn't the person just shoot me if they hate me so much? If it's not by July 13, I'll assume the UPS driver was trying to gaslight/bother me, too.  Again...why don't you just kill me if you want to be hateful?  People are such wusses.  They are willing to walk around and gaslight poor defenseless innocent mentally ill people, but they don't have the guts to get into a fight.  Cowards.

  Nevertheless, I thought I would publish it anyway.  Here is the write-up, maybe someone can see a way to fix it: Proof Attempt Regarding the Goldbach Conjecture by Philip White April 9, 2026 (In this write-up, != means "is not equal to.") The Goldbach conjecture states that every positive even number can be written as the sum of two positive prime numbers. We can re-write this conjecture in the following way:  For every positive integer Q > 2, there exists a natural number v s.t. 0 < v < Q and both Q-v and Q+v are positive prime numbers. We can re-write the concept of primality using a logically equivalent condition:  We say that an integer L is prime if, for any integer J >= L, for all prime numbers p_i, written as p_1, p_2, ... , p_k, from 2 up to the square root of J inclusive, sqrt(J), we have that for all integers i in 1, 2, ... , k, it is the case that L (mod p_i) != 0. Now, since by the Chinese Remainder Theorem, every integer Q is equal to exact...

 I think I found a really good approach to proving the Goldbach conjecture!  All in less than 2 days this time.  I’ll write up a few more of my notes tonight and check my work tomorrow. :). I’m out walking right now.

 When I said I saw evidence of sex trafficking crimes, I may have been jumping to a conclusion. Overall, though, I feel good.  I think I am finally correct...the UPS man's code was the good one, and it's over by Jul 13. :)

 I’m contemplating trying to prove the goldbach conjecture.  Why not?

  1.  An expensive car with tinted windows and a CA plate—wealthy security workers innuendo  2.  Sex trafficking innuendo  3.  A desperately intransigent and purposely unhelpful lawyer…and a bad judge too 4.  Strange gestures with facial expressions from lots of strangers—some have mouth open, some have mouth closed.

 Is Fred Kaufman on my case because he wants access to sex trafficking victims?

 It helps me feel better to journal in public somewhat though.  I am not sharing everything I see out here in Texas.  Maybe there is a special thing about this block on Sul Ross that someone else is aware of and not me.  What is Monarch’s role in all that?

  The key is, authenticity, non-repudiation, and integrity.  The idea is, UPS can't claim they didn't send the message--I heard it, and if the place is under surveillance, due to him or someone else (even me), then the FBI knows what he said and did.  Also, if the message was edited, or sounds like it could have been delivered by mistake, that would be an issue...it was clearly what he meant to say, and, because it sounded like "Go Han," he can't say he was talking about something else...I'm the Star Wars hallucinator, and he is signaling that he understands that and how serious this is.  The two women made a gesture that was nice, but they didn't put the thought into it that would be needed.  I think my job at Martin Foods might have been sabotaged.  It could be that Martin Foods lied, and was not at fault and didn't do anything illegal, but lied to me and got rid of me as an employee because they started facing too much pressure from someone who didn...

  I think the thing is, I have asked Fred Kaufman repeatedly to subpoena the body cam footage.  He won't do it.  I think the key is, the body cam footage would prove that the police were lying...I would be seen not holding any knife, and the knives on the ground would have been seen to have no blood on them.  So the Henrico police are desperate to get rid of me, and they are aware that they CANNOT proceed with the trial.  They can't do anything.  If they convict me in JDR, I can appeal, get a new lawyer, complain to the circuit court judge, and get the police body cam footage, which would prove that the knives had no blood on them, and, that I wasn't holding a knife in my hand like the police claimed in their police report.  Thus, going beyond JDR court means that the police will be caught lying--no blood on the knives, no knife in my hand like the police said when they found me in the downstairs area.  So that's good news!

  Let me try. 1.  The person seems to be trying to say something. 2.  The person seems to know my name, or at least my initials. 3.  The person seems to be talking about something I'm interested in, such as the end date when I will be helped. 4.  The person understands the stakes and demonstrates that awareness...the person understands that if he/she is lying, something bad will happen to them for breaking the law (it's at least federal statute stalking), and so the person asserts that they are not lying. 5.  The person is not making excuses for their actions. I think the closed mouth gesture woman was saying that she can't tell me.  Maybe she was saying, she would like to tell me, but she doesn't know and can't say. The most important two codes that I remember are, the UPS guy saying "Go Han" and the women who whispered "hi."  HI + WHISPER, wtd --> PW, HI, SER.  Don't resign the chess game.  Understand the serrated knife.  What ...

  It could be that the Houston police are bad guys.  I think there's a private security force, and the local police, and they're collaborating to try to destroy my credibility as a witness in my court case.  They want me to appear non-credible and highly delusional.  They want to present all the odd gestures that I've seen people doing as hallucinations.  I don't think that's the case. Who wants me out of the way that badly?  I understand that my parents are very angry with me, but why would anyone with the money and resources to destroy me want to do that?  I think the answer is:  Because the person has some sort of deal with Russia, and wants the Russian government to succeed and thrive, and they see my work as having been a big negative for Russia. That's my understanding.  These people who are messing with me are essentially, in some sense, Russian spies.  I think the Houston police might be bad.  The Henrico police is surely ba...

  The 3:38 code from the police is not that reliable.  The comment is, it's CIANA--confidentiality, integrity, authenticity, non-repudiation, and availability.  The thing is, if the police could deny that they said anything, that would violate non-confidentiality.  I think they wanted me to blog about the guy who showed up by the neighbor's fence the other day.  So I did that.  They weren't saying the date. So, here's my axiom:  Someone would make an effort to tell me the date. I think the July 30 woman was the most clearly reliable.  Someone knows who she is, and she might be bright enough to know that if she's lying, she might get arrested.  It would depend on what she was actually doing, and if someone knew about her contacts or whatever. Is it true that few BH?  Few get my online posts, but many get something about me...my name, or my photograph?  It looks like my appearance is more clearly well-known than my name.  Is ther...

  What if the police *were* signaling me, but their comment was, "don't let a smile or an unusual gesture or even police flashers be the thing that signals you"?  Maybe they were saying, "It's August," and they are "voting against" the idea that a person gesturing at me is a good signal.  I think the comment is, I should look for an up-close interaction with a security person or police officer.  Surely, it's the job of police to keep me and other people safe...so maybe the idea is, wait for someone whose job it is to show up face to face with you, and don't look for a particular facial expression or gesture, just see them choosing to come near you at a particular time.  Maybe they're trying to "set the protocol," to make people stop doing so many gestures.  If they want to access me, instead of gesturing, they should get a security uniform or police uniform, ideally by getting a job in that field. Update:  Maybe it's Augus...

  The police came by at 3:38 p.m.  No gesture was made--not even a smile.  Maybe they wanted to tell me that it's by 8--the 8th month of the year, August.  Maybe they are recommending that it's unwise to trust people based on them making a gesture like a smile, because anyone can do that. The thing is, I don't know how many people are reading my blog.  I know the number of views for each article...but it's not clear if other people have access to it, or if someone accesses the HTML of the articles without getting counted on the view counter thing because they're not using a browser. Should I trust the police showing up at 3:38?  They didn't make it clear that that was a signal directed at me...so maybe it was a coincidence.  That could be true.  I think if the police had wanted to say, "it's August," they would have at least smiled at me or something, since they know that's how I think. I'm debating between the woman who whispered "hi...

  I think the best and most reliable cryptic gesture was the woman who did a "closed mouth gesture" at H-E-B one day, at 3:35 p.m.  It means: EGMC I.e., GCZ Z EM, 7-30, Z 'em.  They are going to drop the people who are doing gestures that are not true.  Some of them are local residents, but they are all very quiet and mysterious about what they're doing.  They might be working for a particular crooked private security or detective company that has an NDA.  It looks like it is not, "drop the market equilibrium."  Maybe the comment is, some of my economics research ideas will be "added" to the set of science ideas that are out there in circulation.

  Maybe the people who had been gesturing at me before were actually not worried about the police.  Maybe they would have told the truth and just said, "yes, I did a gesture with my lip when I saw him," and they would just say that it wasn't intended as anything hostile.  They could also decline to talk to the police without a lawyer, since there wouldn't be probable cause of a crime committed, just based on a simple gesture. So I'm thinking it's by the end of July.  It's hard to have the right "impression" of what is going on.  Which way of thinking about it that I had is the most robust?  Which way would sound the least "weird" if I re-read all of my analyses of the date?  Or, is one of the weird interpretations better?

  I have decided to just go ahead and publish my notes on AI.  The idea isn't great for "current era" AI; it might be useful when quantum computers come out and NP problems can all be solved efficiently.  Here are my notes: $$$$$$Ai idea 4-5-2026 You could define the nouns and verbs in terms of substitutable words and phrases, along with the strength of the substitution. A human user could be prompted with phrase for verb (eg) substitution possibilities and could rank them. Even eg adjectival phrases could be defined in this way. Also think of transposition concealment abbreviation substitution.  We could also rate the extent of the meaning change of a phrase or sentence if one word or phrase were inserted or deleted. Have a great specific rubric for how to do the ratings! Consider both axiomatic and deduced rules and ratings. The dictionary takes the form of direct substitution. How do we deduce new rules??  That’s an open question. Study Markov algorithms…aren...