It Could Be That the H-E-B Signalers Are Just Being Friendly

 

Maybe I'm experiencing culture shock.  Maybe Texas is very different from Virginia, and the people who are smiling at me and making odd gestures with their mouths and kissy faces are just trying to be flirty.  Perhaps I am more handsome than I think I am or something.


My belief that people are spies is rooted in my mental health condition, of course.  I think the end date is August 4, but there hasn't been a massive campaign to confuse me or make me feel bad.  Probably, Martin Foods unkindly got rid of my job for the reason that they said they did.


I see all kinds of unusual gestures in Texas.  I think it's just the spirit and culture of Texas; that kind of thing, according to my understanding, doesn't happen much at all in Virginia.  Maybe Houston, TX, is friendlier than Virginia.  My belief that I'm being followed around by corporate spies certainly sounds like a delusion...but I can't fend it off unless I can process it normally and understand what's really going on.


I know why it's hard for me to process things like that and arrive at non-delusional conclusions...it's because I was living in a science fiction alternate reality for over 10 years.  I don't know why the UPS guy said "go on" or "Go Han" to me.  Maybe he didn't like the way I dressed, or had some feeling about my facial expression or something.  I don't think I hallucinated him saying that.  Maybe he didn't like the look of me, or could tell I was having some sort of delusional problem, and he was trying to help.  Maybe he understood that I would read his comment in a certain delusional way, and eventually figure it out that he was just saying something sort of random, maybe to challenge me to work on my mental health.  Maybe I "looked schizophrenic and delusional" in a way that others can perceive.



04-14:  Update:


I think that there might have been maybe 3 or 4 signalers.  Maybe the signalers were saying, they're gagged about the date, but they're free to share that I did a great job on my publications.  Maybe the goal was to help me understand that my work was valued.  Maybe the government would spend money sending people by to do that, since it's a small price to pay to say "thank you" for my publications.  Maybe also, the idea is, it would encourage me to keep going with publications of good ideas, which would be a good investment.  I think that's the key...who would invest the money in sending people by to gesture at me like that?  I think, possibly the CIA or DARPA or something...people who really want more good ideas to help the USA, strategically and economically.


I think that's the key.  "Sandra Hesse" probably used a lawyer to get the date, and all actual government workers, if they even know the date, are gagged and not allowed to say it.  It's like a journalist being legally able to talk about things that say, a CIA spy would not be allowed to talk about.


So I think there might have been a handful of signalers from the government.  There might been exactly 1 person from the government running out on Sul Ross...it might have been the woman who said "I'm in winning" or whatever...that might have been a good investment of taxpayer money because it was getting me to present some helpful ideas regarding fighting the Russians and Chinese.


So that's my theory.  The signalers were saying, "good job on your research publications, Philip!", and there were a few who were doing it, at my request.  It was to encourage me.  I'll keep working.  The end date was supplied via computerized communication, i.e., August 4 or maybe January 1, 2027.  That's the cheap way to do it.  The people signaling me at the grocery store want to be able to deny it, and, they didn't do it that much, and their goal was simply to encourage me to do more research--which is in my interests--and continue trying to improve my health.


So there were *a few* real signalers.  They're all from the government, and none of them are saying the date.






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