Yes, I Have Been Very Unlucky

 

The amount of bad luck I've had is jaw-dropping.  Especially the bad luck I had in Virginia, with dishonest and malicious people who wanted me jailed, even though I was clearly innocent of any crime.  The hostility of:  my parents, the local police (who made up lies about me too), the prosecutor, the sheriffs deputies in jail, my own defense attorney, and the judge, and surely many others, is astonishing.  What did I do to deserve that??  Surely, not the things they said I did!


Why do people despise me so much, and go so far out of their way to make me suffer unjustifiably?  I am despised, and not only despised, but acted against in horrifying ways, that most people would agree that no one should do to their worst enemy.


Anyway, I hope that my luck changes soon, and fast!  Even if you don't care about the math/economics research I could publish and share, you should agree with the idea that my life matters and that I shouldn't have to go through all this!


By the way, I thought the person who commented on my P vs. NP proof on Reddit is a person from my past--my friend from CTY summer camp in theoretical computer science the summer before 8th grade.  It might be someone else, or an imposter...I don't know for sure.  But maybe this person's decision to weigh in is some sort of sign or signal...a gesture that means that help is on the way and I'll be OK soon??  I certainly hope that's what it means!

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