Re-Evaluating My Mental Health

 

I didn't put on sunscreen today, so I haven't been outside at all for walking yet.


I think my understandings of the codes in the grocery store might be a little bit off.  I would prefer not to elaborate.  At the same time, I am confused.  It is a confusing situation, and not one that most people have to go through at any time in their lives.


I think the exact codes I received were not trustworthy.  I think the key is, there were three geographic areas mentioned in order:


1.  The Middle East

2.  Africa (and South America)

3.  Europe


I don't think I can rely much on the codes to mean anything.  Any of the code people could have been bad-guy spies...unless of course important information was given to me by one or more of the people that a bad-guy spy wouldn't ever get caught sending me.


I don't think that happened though.


It's not important for me to speculate on which of the three were good or bad.  I don't understand the motives for showing up at all if the people are bad-guy spies.  Why would showing up to signal me help their cause?  If they are good guys, are they just showing up to sort of say hello and signal me, because I consented to it?  It is hard for me to see what code transmissions are being signaled.  Maybe I should examine each code without the time.


1.  mouth gesture

2.  kissy face, smile

3.  raise eyebrows, smile


Maybe it means:


1.  Grandmaster (of helping out)...or maybe Maggie Gyllenhaal, who is Rachel Dawes in Batman 2...R&D?

2.  Shin Fujiyama kept (with) (silence)

3.  Ser[rated knife]--Russia is the backer of the conspiracy to frame me for a crime, and that's known



Maybe that translates to:


1.  I'm very excellent at helping in the Middle East, and something good will happen soon that will lead to the end of war and progress with regard to Israel and the Palestinian territories having peaceful coexistence.  My contributions included the QC insight and the Pareto optimal game theory fact.

2.  Maybe Shin Fujiyama has had his establishment in Honduras threatened, and he has had to agree to keep silent and not speak to me at this time.  That could be true.  My contributions here include my many economics ideas, mainly, especially the store management education ideas and the new ideas about demand-site utility bundles (as priorities lists with replacement coupons).

3.  The Russians do not like me, and wish they could stab me painfully with a serrated knife to stop me from innovating to stop them.  Note, I think it was a huge mistake to let Alexei Navalny die; surely someone knew he was going to be captured and killed, yet he wasn't warned.  I was thinking at the time, "Europe is going to be much quieter because of this" (I was in jail.). My contributions here include the QC insight, the "exploit asymmetric randomness storage" insight, and the "hello dossier" insight.  Also, my economics ideas about how to use policies to improve the economies of European countries might be good, since much of the warfare is economics-based in one sense, sometimes anyway...Russia hates sanctions, France/UK/etc. hate weak economies.


So, maybe I was being a little too sensitive previously when I posted.  It's OK.  My TR response was appropriate enough.  I am very confused, and my "intuition" goes a little haywire when I can't process what's going on fully well, perhaps partly due to my thought disorder.  I noticed as I was reacting previously that some of my reactions were sort of similar to my jumping-to-conclusions reaction regarding the power of "the zero signal" in 2023 and in previous years, i.e., my instincts and intuitions were getting a little over-confident...I had a feeling about how my manipulative ideas would impact other people, but, there was too much of an assumption about how other people would likely behave in "closed door interactive environments" with each other; I can't know the details that deeply, that's the same intuition mistake that led me to believe I was safe from the police when I was using the 0 signals, so, I'm glad I am getting better at catching that kind of thing.

Also, I've interacted with a lot of bad guys at H-E-B, so my inadvertent tendency is to sort of assume, after a little while of "mentalizing" and whatnot, that it's time to "get real" and see if I was being too trusting.  I guess that's a habit the bad guys have taught me with their frequent appearances.  I don't need to be sorry, my behavior is still perfectly fine.  I'm just noting that I caught myself and caught the pattern in terms of being a little bit overly suspicious of other people.

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