Keeping My Mental Health In Check

 

I think that my theory last night, that people were signaling me outside in my area, was wrong.  I was being signaled at H-E-B, based on my request, and the people walking around outside were just doing normal gestures.  So my belief that someone was trying to sabotage me and inundate me with misleading codes was false.  That may have been happening on X, but not outdoors.


So my free Monopoly lesson is not something that would actually influence malicious actors that I believed to be outside signaling me to trip me up; this time, there were no malicious actors out there, at least I don't think so and there wasn't that much evidence of hostility.


There have probably been one or two malicious signalers out in that area, in the past...but yesterday was not a day where that happened.


As you can see, I have a bit of trouble processing secret codes sent to me.  I had a doctor in 2007 who said I might develop a problem with "shared secrets."  That might be true.  Sometimes, I *do* receive "shared secrets" from strangers in public...but it is a "decision problem" of sorts that is hard for me personally, with my brain, to solve adequately.


My brain is smart and "high-stature" at some things, especially things related to mathematics and logic.  My brain is not as great at cues interpretation, or at chess.  I was trained vigorously in chess and math as a young child, but I only really took off at math.  I *might* be able to get better at chess someday, but I'm not naturally talented at it; I'd have to think of a way to improve and stop blundering, I'm not a naturally highly gifted chess player.  I'm pleased that I "made it" with math--even though I can't get a job using math, I am very good at it, and it, plus my emerging talent at economics, will probably help me both personally and professionally as I pursue my goals.


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