I Got a Lot of Neat Signals Today at H-E-B!

 There are some things I won't comment on, because I'm trying to be appropriate...I don't know where the signalers work, although I have some ideas.  Here is a DOD comment:  In general, now that I'm well, I support not "painting a picture" of big, secretive DOD areas, when those areas are trying to maintain secrecy.  I believe that people want to research the culture and more of such areas, and search for "young people that the DOD might find attractive for hiring in a few years" and sabotage them.  That might be what happened to me at UMW in 2006, when my psychiatrist, who had seemed very interested in sex, dropped all medications for me and had me running around manic and psychotic.  I had just started researching the discrete logarithm problem for fun.  I think I was targeted by foreign spies.


Here are all the codes I got:


3:35 p.m., (closed) mouth gesture:  Ecce gem.  (ADOM game reference?). What is the gem, something I published?  Are "work credits" a gem in the ADOM game?  I don't know, I haven't been thinking about the ADOM game much lately.  No more 0s for now.  I'll think about it later.


3:39 p.m., kissy face smile:  Fiske e, KF (Kate Frasca) is..., Keith Flint is ... -OR- Seek Fi.  I have done some work, based on having viewed Dr. Glasser's pages before, on trying to identify "friendship screening" ideas for me.  I don't have that many friends to screen.  But basically, my approach is:  1)  Do you take care of your mental health and behave appropriately, or, if you are having problems, are you *trying* to improve and putting forth effort towards being healthy?, 2)  Are you loyal enough to me?  3)  (More optional, I could still be friends with someone without this, but it helps). Do we have common interests that could lead to good conversations or activities we could do together?

I still don't like UMW that much, btw.  The academics were alright, AFAIK.  I do feel smarter.  I also feel rejected.  At least there was no overt harassment of me while I was there...I was ostracized inappropriately, not bullied/harassed/tormented.


3:40 p.m., Raise eyebrows smile

scare ad--yes, I would tend to believe a lot of government people are scared based on what they saw happen to me.  I am wondering if Congress did something to gag everyone in government.  I saw Chuck Schumer do a monolith looking gesture in a photo of him.  I wonder what the FBI will do?  I'm not sure if I would support Nancy Pelosi politically, but yes, it was terrible what happened to her husband.  I might have said something else about that when I was psychotic, but I don't mean that.  I feel very sorry for Gabby Giffords too.  I might have a traumatic brain injury myself, FYI, from my car accident in 2007.  Dr. Schwartz said he thought it was minor, but Dr. Bledowski said it was a TBI.  He might have been trying to just scare me into compliance, but he might have been telling the truth also.  I am scared of brain damage.  My top two fears in life are:  brain damage, getting raped by a man.  I don't think either of those things will happen to me in the future.  I'm also a little bit scared of being a convict, but the whole thing seems so wild and unlikely to work, objectively anyway.


3:48 p.m., thumbs up


Chute ed


Is that about my game?  I will think about this one more later.



The ones I will contemplate and probably write more about later are:


Chute ed

Ecce gem


I think I just realized that BRIBE E, from yesterday, which I responded to while mentioning Eva Tardos, came from a woman talking on the phone who sounded like she was trying to sound like Ms. Lister's accent from Latin 1 in middle school.  So Ecce Gem is probably about my Pareto optimality theorem.  I remember my "1" that I gave to the disabled Holocaust victim before I was arrested.  So I will contemplate this code some more, along with chute.  Is chute supposed to be like a teleportation portal in the ADOM game?


Basically, I felt reassured by the codes that I saw today.  I thought I saw a few hostile people trying to gesture at me, but they don't gesture clearly enough.  E.g., some guy who looked like a UMW student was looking around, but I didn't write it down because it could have been a coincidence.  My reality testing is stronger at this than it used to be.  If you see a gesture, you have to ask if it's clearly a gesture at me, and not just random movements of someone's face.


I hope that I do not get gestures like this forever, especially not instead of talking normally.  For now, though, it's nice...I need information about things, and the reassurances, I think, that I will be OK and I have a good upper bound on the end date, are helpful and will help me feel better.  So thanks!

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