I Don't Feel Great Today

 

It's the stress of work, court, and dealing with the stupid e-bicycle.  I hope I will be OK soon.  I feel it's important for me to get a job and commute to it daily, but it's so hectic getting the e-bicycle set up.  The Monarch staff have been making me feel like I'm a burden and imposing on them to get trips for the e-bicycle taken.  I don't think they're supposed to do that, they let the other residents go on trips all the time.  I only need about 3 more trips anyway.  I heard back from Rice Bikes today--the bicycle is ready for pickup.  I'm worried that they probably didn't put the training wheels on it as I'd asked (they said they might not be able to).  So then I'll have to coordinate more trips to get the training wheels on, and if the job starts, I'll have to take Uber rides and lose most of my money commuting back and forth to work with Uber instead of the e-bike.  I don't think I should try to ride the bicycle without training wheels, even though it's fixed now...I'm worried some of the Monarch staff will try to pressure me to ride it to work without training wheels.  If they try that I will try to talk to Dr. Fowler.


Anyway, I saw a plane tonight that seemed to be saying, PBGT.  Philip's brilliant game theory?  It was, plane, blue, green, tilting.  Maybe it should be airplane instead of plane.  I don't remember what time it was when I saw it.  I wish I knew the end date for sure!  I also saw a car with a weak smiling person in it, that seemed to say, WESD.  I don't know.


Sometimes, with all these codes, and my feelings that people are communicating with me in code, I feel that I am living in 2 or 3 alternate realities.  That does not feel good.  I talk to the people at Monarch one way, and then I write on my blog another way, and I worry about court and work in another way.  I should be helped out of this.  I shouldn't have to do *any* of this myself...but I'm being forced to do it.  I sure hope that the FBI will do something soon!  Or, failing that, that the news media will pick up the story!


Maybe WESD means, "Sweden gets the Nash Equilibrium," and the idea is, it's somehow not safe to email me at this time.  I wonder why the heck not?  Maybe it's a comment about my "Monopoly" post...that is valid, some organizations might be scrutinizing why foreign governments don't simply reach out to me via email...which relationship do they think that would damage?  I don't think Donald Trump or Barack Obama would mind that much.  It is also kind of odd that Barack Obama and Abigail Spanberger won't talk to me.  Maybe they can't because they are linked to organizations that are quietly helping me or something...maybe they would have to be dishonest or overly revealing about certain matters if they spoke to me.  I don't know, I don't get it.  Is there a massive, raging mob on the loose?  Maybe it is concern for children who have to deal with the JDR court in Henrico County.  That's my guess.


So...if we're some of us being super-quiet to save all the children in Virginia...and we've been quiet now for what, at least 2.5 years?...then something to save all the children has just *got* to be happening right now!  Either that, or all the political leaders and others who refuse to get in touch are getting strategically ripped to shreds by some Monopoly fans.

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