I Decided To Skip Fiction For Now

 

I don't think I need to work on fiction right now.  Getting better at it would be a long, slow process.  I would probably get very frustrated.  I should work on fiction when my life is going fine and I'm fully relaxed.


Also, I realized that the government might not be the only one reading my blog.  I don't know who the H-E-B signalers are.  I figure they are good enough people.


I think my best code is the Sandra Hesse code, which is probably from Dr. Steg.  I think worst-case scenario, the ordeal ends by December 1, 2026.  I think the reason why the signalers do not email me or signal me about the date is that it has already been done.  It might be hard to hear that I have to wait until December.


It looks like Judith Glasser might not have been signaling me, because her webpage had the "mad designer" image since February 1, 2023 (though not since December 7, 2022) according to the WayBack machine.  So either Dr. Glasser knew that it would be July 30 in early 2023, before I was even arrested, or, she was not intending to signal me.  Dr. Steg probably foresaw this, and came by to tell me the date himself.


I wonder who all the signalers are, and why they don't tell me the end date?  One of the women at H-E-B hinted that they are gagged.  Maybe they are unable to find out the date from the FBI.  Maybe the key was that Dr. Steg, or someone he knows, reported Tucker Psychiatric to the FBI for clearly mismanaging my medications.  That could be it.  Maybe he reported Dr. Kudurogianis to the FBI, too.  Perhaps that is the conclusion that I was having trouble reaching.  I notice that Dr. K has switched employers a number of times.  I had thought he had liked me and was helping me, but that was probably my confusion based on my condition that led me to be so trusting of him.  He was probably bribed by someone to mess me up.


Maybe LA means something else.  The issue is, there's no year, if it's 12-1.  I would think Dr. Steg would have told me the year.  Maybe he anticipated that I would be well enough to figure it out by this year...but he could have easily written "HOLAZ" if that were needed.


It is also possible that Dr. Glasser called the FBI in early 2023.  Maybe she changed her image when she called the FBI.  Maybe the FBI was called based on the malware issue I was facing, and the fact that I wasn't receiving good therapy or help regarding some of my delusions.  Perhaps the desire to be patient with Dr. K was discarded.  Maybe it really is July 30, 2026--the Laburnum anniversary.


Is there anything else that starts with L that could be the anniversary?  I can't think of anything.  Maybe if L stands for like, and the Quioccasin Blond visit was the anniversary.  That was May 22.


I can't remember where I was in treatment at the start of 2023.  That is when Dr. Glasser's website changed, to the current photo.  Dr. Glasser had called me before I started work at DRC, in around January of 2011.  I wonder if the FBI had been notified by someone credible that I was being neglected and possibly abused in around January of 2023?  That could be it.


I think there are two possibilities, and Dr. Steg knew about how long it would take for me to start to get better enough to analyze this issue appropriately...either it's by July 30/31, and Dr. Glasser was talking about it, or, it's by December 1.  Also, the "and always" poster on X who seemed to know about my conversations at South Florida LifeSkills signaled by January 1, 2027.


I am trying to be trusting here.  I should trust Dr. Steg and Dr. Glasser both.  I'm not going to contact either of them.  I should try to understand that maybe Dr. Glasser wasn't saying anything, but I know that she can be trusted, if she did say something in that image about me.






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