I Am Struggling With Mood Exercises

 

I am currently using this video:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ZYbU82GVz4&list=RD1ZYbU82GVz4&start_radio=1&t=249s


...to help me relax a little bit.  I haven't been able to make myself cry recently, although I haven't been trying very hard.  I think my days would go better if I had better tools for manipulating my own mood.  I don't, though.  I like "mood downers," i.e., things that make me feel more relaxed, calm, interested in crying, and low energy.  I tend to have racing thoughts a lot, at least I think so, so a break from that is always nice.  Sometimes, I almost wish I had mental retardation, because I feel like it would be cool to see what it's like to think slowly and calmly.  (Btw, I strongly oppose using the r-word in a mean/nasty way.  I am open to being friends with people with mental retardation, also.)


I am basically waiting to see if something will happen before July 30.  I am using radical acceptance...something should happen eventually, but if nothing does, I will go to jail and be framed for a crime I didn't commit and have to spend some time resting and relaxing.  I could do a little bit of casual writing in spirals with. open, sometimes inmates in that jail are allowed to access pads of paper and a pen to write with.


I don't know what else to say.  I see "modifying my mood" as a good, very legitimate activity to try to do each day.  "Relaxation" is itself a good activity.  I don't have that many resources for how to do it though.  I sort of don't feel like tryin to get back into crying, i.e., making myself cry.


That's all I'm going to say for now.

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